Mum just sat here in work thinking about you, with tears in my eyes. Everything is hurting so much as don't have anyone to talk to. I know you are watching over me and will be smiling at your new grandsons as of course you did with Chelsie - you would be so proud! I wish I was as stubborn as you sometimes and hope you will be with me tomorrow when perhaps I find out whether my future lies in education any more. Be there with me mum, I need you. Lorraine xxxxxxxx